Warrior friend your eyes tell me every thing i need to know. all the answers to unasked questions , you acknowledge in your quiet calm all the weak attempts at words stuck in my mouth...so i just hold you instead and hope you feel everything i want to say and all my selfish wishes.  all the silent prayers banging around in my head and all the deals I've made with God. i'm bargaining for more days and nights because I haven't had nearly enough of you . i'm still in love with that 18 year old girl who knew her way around this universe long before the rest of us could navigate what she had mastered... and kept me doubled over laughing as it all played out.